through ups and downs

Hello earthlings.

I’m in pressure. I hate being in pressure. I was just a victim of these fucking situation. I must learn how to neutralize my stress. I lost myself..nowhere.. hmmphh. I felt very guilty. If I could turn back time, I won’t speak to you like that. I’ll just kept silent. Say whatever you wanna say. But I just can’t control my temper. I’m so mad when you said “dia dah lupa kawan kan”. That’s why I respond like a stupid asshole with a bitch face. Its not my intention to hurt you or to make you angry. You know how much I love you. But things just happened. We’re all are under pressure, stressed with that stupid SPM. Mr Kung was right. At this time, when 19 days left, everyone is changing into someone else. Even a bestfriends could have a fight over a stupid reason. That’s what happened to us. Before this, I can take all your jokes. Cause I know it was a joke. You and others wanna tease me. But lately, I don’t know why the hell with me I can’t accept all your ordinary jokes. It hurts me deep inside. If you know me very well, I don’t know how to scold people especially when I really love that person. So what I can do is, bottle it up! Cause I told myself that it was a joke. But then again, I can’t resist my temper. I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean it.

So, we settled down our problems after that. Having a face-to-face talks. She asked me to puke everything out. So I did. I cried very hard. LOL. But I felt released after that. She said sorry and all. I’m not mad at you. Hmm its all because of P-R-E-S-S-U-R-E in me. I love this friendship. I love you guys so much. That’s it. We’re gonna have a lot of fun right after Chemistry paper. Kan? hihi ;p

19 days left. It freaks me out! :@